So I took a nice trip to New York this past thanksgiving weekend and I gotta say that after those few days, I don't hate NY anymore.
I used to hate it with a passion mainly cause I was so accustomed to this shithole we call Providence but now I can appreciate the big apple again.
And somewhere in the next 2 years,I'm moving back. (I still hate the yankees though)
Other than that, I started talking to my sorta long lost friend Shanelle again.
I say that mostly because of the fact that I didn't talk to her for about 2 months or so due to several reasons but I'm not going to talk about that now.
Talking to her again feels great, she's not like all these other girls out here. She's.....different
.....and I like it.
over the course of my life I've met extrodinary people and lost alot of friends at the same time but to have someone like her to talk to really makes me wonder that I have some really great friends :)
and YES! I actually appreciate aventura now,
I still hate romero(and the guy likes fat girls btw,so for all you skinny spanish obsessed aventura fans out there,
1 tip: Gain some weight if you want romero to give you a lap dance) FACT!
The Moral I finally learned here: Appreciate what you have and the people in your life, because they might not be there tomorrow.
Simple fact of life. POSEIDON!!! (greek mythology on the brain)
Doc Out
Life is mysterious, funny, and heartbreaking. I'm just here making the best of it
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Books
current reading list
1.The lovely bones(good book,mark wahlberg beter not kill the movie though)
2.Percy jackson and the olympians:the lightning thief(ACTION!! GODS! TITANS!)
3.Deadville(calm, cool, and collected)
4.Great expectations(school book)
5. The hunger games(when i get it,lol)
1.The lovely bones(good book,mark wahlberg beter not kill the movie though)
2.Percy jackson and the olympians:the lightning thief(ACTION!! GODS! TITANS!)
3.Deadville(calm, cool, and collected)
4.Great expectations(school book)
5. The hunger games(when i get it,lol)
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
GrowingUp
I really feel myself changing as of lately,and I kind of like it.
I'm doing way better in school than last quarter(math is fuckin easy now!) and I really see myself getting more A's and B's this time around. Yesterday was weird, mainly since the entire day I was in "do your work" state of mind which was pretty cool.
Today on the other hand was really bussy. I finally applied to all my college!!!
Final list
1.Bentley University
2.Hampshire College
3.Suffolk University
4.Salve Regina University
5.URI(ofcourse)
6.RIC(ofcourse)
(I am really aiming for Hampshire though)
After all was said and done, I felt proud of myself for being one of the first people to mail out first but most importantly the leadership I took in this entire process.
(but I still missed 3 classes today in the process of all of this so I sense alot of h.w in my future)
Wow, I really am growing up
Its time to start the next chapter in my life.
I'm doing way better in school than last quarter(math is fuckin easy now!) and I really see myself getting more A's and B's this time around. Yesterday was weird, mainly since the entire day I was in "do your work" state of mind which was pretty cool.
Today on the other hand was really bussy. I finally applied to all my college!!!
Final list
1.Bentley University
2.Hampshire College
3.Suffolk University
4.Salve Regina University
5.URI(ofcourse)
6.RIC(ofcourse)
(I am really aiming for Hampshire though)
After all was said and done, I felt proud of myself for being one of the first people to mail out first but most importantly the leadership I took in this entire process.
(but I still missed 3 classes today in the process of all of this so I sense alot of h.w in my future)
Wow, I really am growing up
Its time to start the next chapter in my life.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
No Title(Yet)
Summary: Adam is just your typical music loving,free spirited guy who seems to find himself aways having bad luck with girls. One day, He's asked to show the new kid around school, A girl nammed karen. After just a day Adam feels like she's the one,they start hanging out alot until they finally become best friends. At this point though Adam realizes that he's in love with karen, but its practially impossible for him to make his move because of Craig: Her jackass of a boyfriend and someone Adam doesn't really k=like that much. Adam knows that he can't let his feelings go for karen so he decides to write karen anonamous letters slowly confessing his feelings for her. Karen slowly gets drawn in to whoever she thinks is writing these letters but when Craig see's the letters and goes out on a manhunt to find who is writing them, things get hot for Adam,but he isn't going to stop writing,he isn't going to stop till he gets his point across. one way or the other.
CHAPTER 1
ADAM!
The angry voice that I am so accustomed to was oddly louder than expected today, which only meant 1 thing: I'm in trouble yet again.
"Comming" I replied
Now usually I would ask my mom what the hell I did, but today was different. No lying necesarry today,which is rather odd for me since i'm practically a chronic liar. When I get to my living room I see my mom standing in her semi-dominant stance looking at me with those piercing greenish eyes of hers. She had that stare in her eyes, the stare that can make you get on your knees and confess to any crim you may have commited. Its like she's trying to rip your soul out with that look. That scares me at times.
"Yeah mom" I said
"Can you explain to me why your teacher just called me?" She asked.
"I'm guessing it has to do with the correction I gave him today in class" I reply
"Correction?" she said.
"Yes mom,correction. MR.Mario can't seem to wrap his head around the fact that people are wrong sometimes,so I just told him he was wrong" I said
"And it looks like he took it to the heart this time"
Asshole
Mom knows when I tell the truth and she knew damn well I was telling the truth.
"I really don't know what to say" She said
"How about Don't do it again?" I say all smart-like
"Yeah, like I haven't said that before" She said
"Just go do your homework,if you have any"
"Will do" I said
I left the living room with a nice grin on my face. Mr. Mario is a perfect example of teachers(mainly men who teach) who don't get any at home from their wives and just take out their fustration out on their students. I'm not a bad kid, I get A's and B's in all my classes, I'm talented, and I have a bright future ahead of me-this is what any adult would say about me. The way I describe myself is in the following: 16 years old, Tall,somewhat built(still skinny though),I have an I.Q of probably 5.0 but I choose not to show my full potential,Music feen!,very lazy, and last but not least: failure in love.
Love
A mushy feeling all humans get when around another person they really care about eachother.Its pathetic.
I'm not unpopular don't get me wrong, I know almost everyone in my school,and my school is HUGE! so thats a pretty good acomplishment for anyone who goes to my school to have,but, i"m not that smooth when it comes to girls. I've only had two girlfriends. I'm not saying i'm trying to find my soulmate at 16 but a guy needs some lovin every now and then.
I get back to my room and hop on AIM on my computer,I see that I have a couple of texts on my phone due to the blinking blue light thats flashing at me. I just ignore it for now. I just plug in my headphones and open iTunes and play John mayer-Daughters, the song just calms me down when I feel rather irritated. My friend Mike hits me up just to tell me to get on live to play Modern Warfare 2, but I just told him I was too tired to play tonite. In reality I really was, so I just logged off AIM and turned off my mac. I plugged in my iPod and decided to listen to Lupe Fiasco's The coolest to end my night. It was exactly 11:42 and I wake up at 7:00 almost everyday. I turn off my lamp and just stare at my ceeling in the darkness, thinking,I always do this. I always have things that make me think, but tonite I just felt blank though. I really don't know why but I did.
"What the Hell is this?" I tell myself
I stay up for another two minuutes till I turn the pod off and close my eyes.
Nite world
CHAPTER 1
ADAM!
The angry voice that I am so accustomed to was oddly louder than expected today, which only meant 1 thing: I'm in trouble yet again.
"Comming" I replied
Now usually I would ask my mom what the hell I did, but today was different. No lying necesarry today,which is rather odd for me since i'm practically a chronic liar. When I get to my living room I see my mom standing in her semi-dominant stance looking at me with those piercing greenish eyes of hers. She had that stare in her eyes, the stare that can make you get on your knees and confess to any crim you may have commited. Its like she's trying to rip your soul out with that look. That scares me at times.
"Yeah mom" I said
"Can you explain to me why your teacher just called me?" She asked.
"I'm guessing it has to do with the correction I gave him today in class" I reply
"Correction?" she said.
"Yes mom,correction. MR.Mario can't seem to wrap his head around the fact that people are wrong sometimes,so I just told him he was wrong" I said
"And it looks like he took it to the heart this time"
Asshole
Mom knows when I tell the truth and she knew damn well I was telling the truth.
"I really don't know what to say" She said
"How about Don't do it again?" I say all smart-like
"Yeah, like I haven't said that before" She said
"Just go do your homework,if you have any"
"Will do" I said
I left the living room with a nice grin on my face. Mr. Mario is a perfect example of teachers(mainly men who teach) who don't get any at home from their wives and just take out their fustration out on their students. I'm not a bad kid, I get A's and B's in all my classes, I'm talented, and I have a bright future ahead of me-this is what any adult would say about me. The way I describe myself is in the following: 16 years old, Tall,somewhat built(still skinny though),I have an I.Q of probably 5.0 but I choose not to show my full potential,Music feen!,very lazy, and last but not least: failure in love.
Love
A mushy feeling all humans get when around another person they really care about eachother.Its pathetic.
I'm not unpopular don't get me wrong, I know almost everyone in my school,and my school is HUGE! so thats a pretty good acomplishment for anyone who goes to my school to have,but, i"m not that smooth when it comes to girls. I've only had two girlfriends. I'm not saying i'm trying to find my soulmate at 16 but a guy needs some lovin every now and then.
I get back to my room and hop on AIM on my computer,I see that I have a couple of texts on my phone due to the blinking blue light thats flashing at me. I just ignore it for now. I just plug in my headphones and open iTunes and play John mayer-Daughters, the song just calms me down when I feel rather irritated. My friend Mike hits me up just to tell me to get on live to play Modern Warfare 2, but I just told him I was too tired to play tonite. In reality I really was, so I just logged off AIM and turned off my mac. I plugged in my iPod and decided to listen to Lupe Fiasco's The coolest to end my night. It was exactly 11:42 and I wake up at 7:00 almost everyday. I turn off my lamp and just stare at my ceeling in the darkness, thinking,I always do this. I always have things that make me think, but tonite I just felt blank though. I really don't know why but I did.
"What the Hell is this?" I tell myself
I stay up for another two minuutes till I turn the pod off and close my eyes.
Nite world
Friday, November 20, 2009
Food For Thought
So yea, I saw New Moon today with some friends, and just like the book, it was a love story from beginning to end. (evcept with a whole room of females going nuts over taylor lautner taking off his shirt that is,wtf)
w.e
What really got to me is the whole "love" thing. Yes, I said yesterday "FUCK LOVE" with authority but sometimes........one can't help but wonder
is there someone out there for me?"
"is there somebody that i can call the love of my life?"
At the end of the nite a wise man told me the 1 piece of advice I never heard form anyone before but always needed
"before you find a gurl, you need to find yourself"
Its time to find myself then
Doc out
P.S. who feels like me on this topic?? please tell me what you think,comment,reply,hit me up on aim-skatrnerd1
w.e
What really got to me is the whole "love" thing. Yes, I said yesterday "FUCK LOVE" with authority but sometimes........one can't help but wonder
is there someone out there for me?"
"is there somebody that i can call the love of my life?"
At the end of the nite a wise man told me the 1 piece of advice I never heard form anyone before but always needed
"before you find a gurl, you need to find yourself"
Its time to find myself then
Doc out
P.S. who feels like me on this topic?? please tell me what you think,comment,reply,hit me up on aim-skatrnerd1
Thursday, November 19, 2009
John mayer
I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
True Love(Does it exist??)
My english teacher gave me a n assignment on philosophy and other things that I really don't understand and one question really did make me laugh
"What is true love?"
point blank my answer is this: FUCK LOVE!
But,its school. so I couldn't put that as an answer. so I just put what I thought was right.
"True love is when two people have unconditional feelings for eachother,you can't really explain how you feel when you're with that person because you're on an all time high and you don't really wanna come down cause it feels good. really good"
"I gave her my heart,she gave me a pen"- John Cusack(say anything.. movie)
But lets face it ppl, thats 1 in a billion. You can prove me wrong if you want but my hypothesis stands as love dnt exist.
us as teens can't seem to find love(well maimly me,so thats why i say fuck love)
But
to those who have found true love, congrats and I hope it lasts
Doc out
(P.S. you got anything to say about this,hit me up on aim skatrnerd1 or just comment this entry then)
"What is true love?"
point blank my answer is this: FUCK LOVE!
But,its school. so I couldn't put that as an answer. so I just put what I thought was right.
"True love is when two people have unconditional feelings for eachother,you can't really explain how you feel when you're with that person because you're on an all time high and you don't really wanna come down cause it feels good. really good"
"I gave her my heart,she gave me a pen"- John Cusack(say anything.. movie)
But lets face it ppl, thats 1 in a billion. You can prove me wrong if you want but my hypothesis stands as love dnt exist.
us as teens can't seem to find love(well maimly me,so thats why i say fuck love)
But
to those who have found true love, congrats and I hope it lasts
Doc out
(P.S. you got anything to say about this,hit me up on aim skatrnerd1 or just comment this entry then)
Friday, November 6, 2009
Alone?
Lately I've been feeling rather alone and isolated
Shit feels wrong cause who wants to feel alone? No one does
But if thats how things get done then thats how its goanna be and if you think i'm a loser for that then suck on this chumps!
I don't need no love in my life!
(I'm lying to myself......typical)
BTW: some posts on this blog may be rather short so bare with me people, shit's goanna get alot deeper as time passes by.
Shit feels wrong cause who wants to feel alone? No one does
But if thats how things get done then thats how its goanna be and if you think i'm a loser for that then suck on this chumps!
I don't need no love in my life!
(I'm lying to myself......typical)
BTW: some posts on this blog may be rather short so bare with me people, shit's goanna get alot deeper as time passes by.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
TheDoc is now In
Blinking red lite!!!
So yeah, I told you I was going to start a new blog
except
this 1 is a no nonsense,straight to the point,no chaser blog! If I feel like saying 1 word thats all you'll get. If I feel like cussing for the entire blog,thats whats goanna happen.
But
at the same time I really dnt wanna seem like i'm this angry person with just foul language in my head so i'm going to ask you people to actually comment my blog every once in a while.
Mainly why I call this blog "I'm Not Here" (besides if you put a T in front of here and it spells there and thats also the name of the Bob Dylan movie) is because sometimes I dnt feel like my mind is always where its supposed to be which means....I'm Not Here.
I'll explain more of my masterplan along the way. Doc out
P.S. look in certain places around the city to find my url cause ima have a sharpie in handy with me everywhere I go and I'm just goanna tagg it everywhere and I mean EVERYWHERE!!!
So yeah, I told you I was going to start a new blog
except
this 1 is a no nonsense,straight to the point,no chaser blog! If I feel like saying 1 word thats all you'll get. If I feel like cussing for the entire blog,thats whats goanna happen.
But
at the same time I really dnt wanna seem like i'm this angry person with just foul language in my head so i'm going to ask you people to actually comment my blog every once in a while.
Mainly why I call this blog "I'm Not Here" (besides if you put a T in front of here and it spells there and thats also the name of the Bob Dylan movie) is because sometimes I dnt feel like my mind is always where its supposed to be which means....I'm Not Here.
I'll explain more of my masterplan along the way. Doc out
P.S. look in certain places around the city to find my url cause ima have a sharpie in handy with me everywhere I go and I'm just goanna tagg it everywhere and I mean EVERYWHERE!!!
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